It's 4 months today. The weather is a mirror of my mood. It's rainy and stormy. I won't go to the International Peace Garden today. Maybe tomorrow. It's supposed to be sunny tomorrow.
I still miss him like crazy and to answer my own question from my previous entry - it hasn't been getting any easier. I am crying without much provocation. It doesn't take much to set me off.
I went to play Bunko with some friends from church yesterday. It was nice to get out. Janean talked me into going to the women's retreat next weekend. This will be my first time.
My youngest son Jason got married last weekend. I didn't go, since I don't have a passport. Well, he wasn't at my wedding either. In fact, he has never been to Utah to meet Gary. His loss. He missed out on meeting a wonderful man. They are expecting a baby due in November. I am working on knitting a blanket. It is almost ready. I will send it off next week. They don't know the gender of the baby, so I made the blanket in natural colors. To be on the safe side.
One of these days I will apply for my US Citizenship. This is where home is now. Gary and I talked about it, but then his health issues took priority. I can see him sitting in heaven - shouting - YEAH !!! I am keeping my Canadian Citizenship though if I can. If not - oh well.
I had the car in the BackStreet Shop on Friday. A headlight had to be replaced. It turned out to be more than that. Some of the wiring was corroded. I got talking to Greg (who has serviced our cars for ages) and he told me how Gary has influenced his life. HE QUIT SMOKING BECAUSE OF GARY - YEAH!!. Gary had told him for years that if he doesn't quit, he will end up on oxygen. In March when I was at the Oil Rig to have an oil change done, I told Greg that Gary was again in the hospital. I think that was the time when Greg decided - it's time to quit. One never knows, how one effects other people. Since I am talking to Gary every night before I turn out the light, I told him. I bet he is happy about it. Gary effected a lot of people (besides me of course) in a very good way. I love you sweetheart.