Yes, I did it. I opened my Etsy Store. As of this minute I have only 1 item listed - but then again, I just started this afternoon. That will be my job - getting all my listing into the shop.
I can just see Gary sitting in heaven grinning - SHE FINALLY DID IT - YEAH !!!!! He always said I should sell my stuff. Thank you Sweetheart, I love you.
The name of my shop is: HilsGalsStitchins.etsy.com
Stop by and check it out. Please give me a chance to stock it first though. Opening Special is FREE SHIPPING within the USA.
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
2010?????
It really is 2010 - at least that's what the calendar says.
Yesterday was the 4th of January. To celebrate Gary's freedom we went to IHOP, our favorite breakfast place. I ordered, what we always did - Kitchen Sink and coffee. It is an omelet with everything but the kitchen sink in it - and it is good) We used to order it from the senior menu (smaller portions, smaller price) - but it is not on there anymore. So we just ordered it regular. I had a coupon 2 for 1 - We were even sitting in the same booth we were normally sitting. All of the sudden, the tears came. Without looking at the clock I knew that it was 10:30 - the time they disconnected the machines 7 months ago. I KNOW that eventual it will get better (at least I hope so) I can already go longer periods without crying, and then sometimes, I can't find an end. I miss Gary so very much. Talking to him every night helps.
I am getting ready to open my Etsy store. I've been crocheting up a storm so I can have some inventory. I still have not made friends with my sewing machine - that's still on the agenda. Soon.
Yesterday was the 4th of January. To celebrate Gary's freedom we went to IHOP, our favorite breakfast place. I ordered, what we always did - Kitchen Sink and coffee. It is an omelet with everything but the kitchen sink in it - and it is good) We used to order it from the senior menu (smaller portions, smaller price) - but it is not on there anymore. So we just ordered it regular. I had a coupon 2 for 1 - We were even sitting in the same booth we were normally sitting. All of the sudden, the tears came. Without looking at the clock I knew that it was 10:30 - the time they disconnected the machines 7 months ago. I KNOW that eventual it will get better (at least I hope so) I can already go longer periods without crying, and then sometimes, I can't find an end. I miss Gary so very much. Talking to him every night helps.
I am getting ready to open my Etsy store. I've been crocheting up a storm so I can have some inventory. I still have not made friends with my sewing machine - that's still on the agenda. Soon.
Saturday, December 26, 2009
I MADE IT
I survived Christmas, not without many tears mind you, but I did it. I have to admit that I lost it a few times though. Thursday's mail call was one of those times. I received a package from the funeral parlor - inside was a tree ornament with Gary's picture in. That did it. In my opinion, they went beyond the call of duty.
I didn't send out many Christmas Cards this year. I did it online and I included this poem:
I didn't send out many Christmas Cards this year. I did it online and I included this poem:
My First Christmas in Heaven
I see the countless Christmas Trees, around the world below
With tiny lights like heaven’s stars, reflecting on the snow.
The sight is so spectacular, please wipe away your tears,
For I am sharing Christmas, with Jesus Christ this year.
I hear the many Christmas songs, that people hold so dear,
But the sounds of music can’t compare, with the Christmas choir here.
I have no words to tell you, the joy their voices bring,
it’s far beyond description, to hear the angels sing.
I know how much you miss me. I see the pain within your heart,
But I am not so far away. We really aren’t apart.
So be happy for me, loved ones. You know I hold you dear,
And be glad I’m spending Christmas, with Jesus Christ this year.
I send you each a special gift, from my heavenly home above.
I send you each a memory, of my undying love.
After all “love” is the gift, more precious than pure gold.
It was always most important, in the stories Jesus told.
Please love and keep each other, as my Father said to do,
For I can’t count the blessings, or the love He has for you.
So, have a Merry Christmas, and wipe away those tears,
For I am sharing Christmas, with Jesus Christ this year.
A good friend sent it one to me shortly after Gary's passing.
Friday, December 4, 2009
ONLY AND ALREADY
6 months today. Only and already. Time is still speeding and crawling. If someone would ask me, how I survived the last 6 months - I couldn't tell. I am on auto pilot. At times I am asking myself, what am I doing here? I want to be with Gary. It feels though like Gary tells me - not yet. You still have loads and loads to do, and he is right. If I look at my yarn and fabric, I will have to stick around until I am about 110+ years old. But I know he is with me in spirit. I will celebrate Gary's 6-month being pain free by going to the Liberty Quartet concert next Friday at the Nazarene Church. Gary loved the guys and their music. Southern gospel. Beautiful. And they are funny to boot.
I have almost completed my commitments to the Dream Center and to the Outreach Program. I will then take a break of about 2 weeks from charity crafting and make stuff for my Etsy store. I have a name already picked out and have 3 funky key-hole scarves ready. Not enough to open the store though. I am also "considering" renting a booth together with Nancy at the Octoberfest in Snowbird next August/September. We both are not sure though. The rent is $250 each and one has to sell a lot of things to make just the rent. Nancy has about 100 loomed hats ready. We will find out when the last possible day is to rent the booth and see how Nancy's health is doing. As I found out, a lot can change in a very short time.
I have almost completed my commitments to the Dream Center and to the Outreach Program. I will then take a break of about 2 weeks from charity crafting and make stuff for my Etsy store. I have a name already picked out and have 3 funky key-hole scarves ready. Not enough to open the store though. I am also "considering" renting a booth together with Nancy at the Octoberfest in Snowbird next August/September. We both are not sure though. The rent is $250 each and one has to sell a lot of things to make just the rent. Nancy has about 100 loomed hats ready. We will find out when the last possible day is to rent the booth and see how Nancy's health is doing. As I found out, a lot can change in a very short time.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Time is running and crawling
It is now 5 months since Gary left to be with Jesus. To answer my own question in my previous post - yes, it is getting easier - but only very slowly. Very slowly.
Yesterday we had J.O.Y. (Just Older Youth) I didn't want to go. I was writing an e-mail and at 1030 exactly something prompted me to stop. I started crying without being aware of the time. That was exactly the time when they turned of the oxygen 5 months ago. It is amazing. Every month on the 4th at 1030 AM I am re-living that moment. I was sitting by his bed, holding his hand crying and talking to him until after he was gone. It is still very much with me.
Around 1130AM I felt Gary telling me to get moving - JOY is starting and I am not dressed to go out. How can I resist the love of my life? I can't. So I went. It was good being with friends. It was out Thanksgiving celebration. When it came to say what we are thankful for - I couldn't speak. So I passed.
On a lighter note, I became a grandma last weekend. Jaymee was born at 1251 AM on November 01. Mother and daughter are doing fine. Father?? I am not so sure. When he called me, he was bouncing off the wall. Understandable, since it is his first.
Yesterday we had J.O.Y. (Just Older Youth) I didn't want to go. I was writing an e-mail and at 1030 exactly something prompted me to stop. I started crying without being aware of the time. That was exactly the time when they turned of the oxygen 5 months ago. It is amazing. Every month on the 4th at 1030 AM I am re-living that moment. I was sitting by his bed, holding his hand crying and talking to him until after he was gone. It is still very much with me.
Around 1130AM I felt Gary telling me to get moving - JOY is starting and I am not dressed to go out. How can I resist the love of my life? I can't. So I went. It was good being with friends. It was out Thanksgiving celebration. When it came to say what we are thankful for - I couldn't speak. So I passed.
On a lighter note, I became a grandma last weekend. Jaymee was born at 1251 AM on November 01. Mother and daughter are doing fine. Father?? I am not so sure. When he called me, he was bouncing off the wall. Understandable, since it is his first.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Where has the time gone?
It's 4 months today. The weather is a mirror of my mood. It's rainy and stormy. I won't go to the International Peace Garden today. Maybe tomorrow. It's supposed to be sunny tomorrow.
I still miss him like crazy and to answer my own question from my previous entry - it hasn't been getting any easier. I am crying without much provocation. It doesn't take much to set me off.
I went to play Bunko with some friends from church yesterday. It was nice to get out. Janean talked me into going to the women's retreat next weekend. This will be my first time.
My youngest son Jason got married last weekend. I didn't go, since I don't have a passport. Well, he wasn't at my wedding either. In fact, he has never been to Utah to meet Gary. His loss. He missed out on meeting a wonderful man. They are expecting a baby due in November. I am working on knitting a blanket. It is almost ready. I will send it off next week. They don't know the gender of the baby, so I made the blanket in natural colors. To be on the safe side.
One of these days I will apply for my US Citizenship. This is where home is now. Gary and I talked about it, but then his health issues took priority. I can see him sitting in heaven - shouting - YEAH !!! I am keeping my Canadian Citizenship though if I can. If not - oh well.
I had the car in the BackStreet Shop on Friday. A headlight had to be replaced. It turned out to be more than that. Some of the wiring was corroded. I got talking to Greg (who has serviced our cars for ages) and he told me how Gary has influenced his life. HE QUIT SMOKING BECAUSE OF GARY - YEAH!!. Gary had told him for years that if he doesn't quit, he will end up on oxygen. In March when I was at the Oil Rig to have an oil change done, I told Greg that Gary was again in the hospital. I think that was the time when Greg decided - it's time to quit. One never knows, how one effects other people. Since I am talking to Gary every night before I turn out the light, I told him. I bet he is happy about it. Gary effected a lot of people (besides me of course) in a very good way. I love you sweetheart.
I still miss him like crazy and to answer my own question from my previous entry - it hasn't been getting any easier. I am crying without much provocation. It doesn't take much to set me off.
I went to play Bunko with some friends from church yesterday. It was nice to get out. Janean talked me into going to the women's retreat next weekend. This will be my first time.
My youngest son Jason got married last weekend. I didn't go, since I don't have a passport. Well, he wasn't at my wedding either. In fact, he has never been to Utah to meet Gary. His loss. He missed out on meeting a wonderful man. They are expecting a baby due in November. I am working on knitting a blanket. It is almost ready. I will send it off next week. They don't know the gender of the baby, so I made the blanket in natural colors. To be on the safe side.
One of these days I will apply for my US Citizenship. This is where home is now. Gary and I talked about it, but then his health issues took priority. I can see him sitting in heaven - shouting - YEAH !!! I am keeping my Canadian Citizenship though if I can. If not - oh well.
I had the car in the BackStreet Shop on Friday. A headlight had to be replaced. It turned out to be more than that. Some of the wiring was corroded. I got talking to Greg (who has serviced our cars for ages) and he told me how Gary has influenced his life. HE QUIT SMOKING BECAUSE OF GARY - YEAH!!. Gary had told him for years that if he doesn't quit, he will end up on oxygen. In March when I was at the Oil Rig to have an oil change done, I told Greg that Gary was again in the hospital. I think that was the time when Greg decided - it's time to quit. One never knows, how one effects other people. Since I am talking to Gary every night before I turn out the light, I told him. I bet he is happy about it. Gary effected a lot of people (besides me of course) in a very good way. I love you sweetheart.
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Another month
I survived another month without Gary.
Every 4th of the month I am doing something special, something we liked to do together. In August I went to Wendover and in September I went to the International Peace Garden for a picnic. We had planned at the beginning of the year to go to the International Peace Garden, but Gary never made it. October I will go there again, since it was too hot to walk around - will do that in October.
I still have his birthday next Wednesday to deal with. He would have been 72.
I am still talking to Gary every night, telling him about my day and what's going on and stuff. This helps me to cope.
Will it get any easier with time?
Every 4th of the month I am doing something special, something we liked to do together. In August I went to Wendover and in September I went to the International Peace Garden for a picnic. We had planned at the beginning of the year to go to the International Peace Garden, but Gary never made it. October I will go there again, since it was too hot to walk around - will do that in October.
I still have his birthday next Wednesday to deal with. He would have been 72.
I am still talking to Gary every night, telling him about my day and what's going on and stuff. This helps me to cope.
Will it get any easier with time?
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